shutting God out

There’s a woman who was raised by deaf parents. She tells of how she would simply close her eyes to shut off the relationship. It infuriated her parents who had no way to communicate with her except through signing. If I was honest, I’d have to admit there are times I’m like that with God. I close both my eyes and my ears to God. I seal my eyelids tight. I put my fingers in my ears. I may not literally do that, but when I don’t actually take time to look for God or listen to God (and that’s most of the time) then I am in reality shutting God out. And I’m the one who ultimately loses out, whether I realize it or not.